June 29th, 2018 @ 1:16am (Friday)

Here is the third journal I'm creating tonight. I'm not sure when or how many times I will be writing in this one. Especially with my daughter now seventeen, and soon to be eighteen. I do have to say though, this seems to be the start of really fathering but I have no idea. She does want to write, I don't know if it's because of me or if it's something she truly enjoys doing.

She is currently over her mother's house but she will be back tomorrow or today, however you will look at it. Today is Friday. Hey I just got an idea. I think I will also put the day of the week on these journals that I'm writing. Like a sub, sub, sub header.

I'm not sure if you all understand how tempted I am to put the abbreviations of laughing out loud (lol) in my writings.

Tomorrow after my daughter get off from work, we will watch the Originals. It's a show my daughter got me into watching. It's amazing to me that my daughter wants to do anything with me. I rather enjoy it for me to not really enjoy hanging out with people.

Whelp, I guess I'm going to wrap this up. I didn't think that I would be able to put things down in this journal since I haven't seen my daughter since Tuesday. I am realizing now though, that I could probably go on and on about nothing when it comes to journaling (this is not a real word but who cares) as a father.

As I close, I just want to say, I see now that this will probably be the easiest to write in. Well, until next time.

June 29th, 2018 @ 1:29am

July 1st, 2018 @ 11:29pm

Just a quick note today. I was able to have my daughter understand budgeting this weekend. I believe I'm most proud that she actually listened to me. Another thing that made me proud is her quoting one of my philosophies about working or doing anything. I always told her, when she does something, do at her best regardless of what anybody else is doing or saying. Answer to no one but herself and deliver greatness on any project she chooses to do.

My daughter is growing into a lovely strong woman and I couldn't be more prouder. Now if I only get her to listen to me about the clothes she chooses to wear.

Whelp, I guess it can't be all perfect. But on that note I just wanted to document my pride in my daughter.

July 1st, 2018 @ 11:35pm

September 26th, 2018 @ 10:40am

A quick note before I begin on why I'm actually writing in this today. I started this journal with really not knowing if I was going to keep it or not. Part of the reason is how I am as a person. However I realized today that I will probably keep this journal.

There is a lot of times where your kids will disappoint you. And as I'm writing this, I'm wondering, not really wondering but knowing that I know I have disappointed my mother a whole heap of times. The one thing I am proud of though is my daughter does have a mind of her own and she does self reflect which means that she should be able to grow from whatever decisions she makes. Truthfully she is a whole lot further in life then I was at her age. I couldn't be more proud. With that said I wish that people didn't get under her skin and that she could find a way to not let things bother her.

Sometimes I wish I was a woman so I can relate better to her. Understand how a woman's emotions work. But I can't so I have to try and be as supportive as I can and not be overly harsh or critical of the decisions she make based off of an emotional response.

All in all I'm not worried because she will learn from this and she will see that she will have to do things with her mind and not let emotions make her decisions for her.

September 26th, 2018 @ 4:38pm

October 11th, 2018 @ 7:15pm

My daughter singing, she's on the right. So proud of her! I won't do my usual ramblings on this post. Just check out the video.

October 11th, 2018 @ 7:19pm

November 23rd, 2018 @ 10:05pm

I just wanted to make a quick note in here. I was just served again for child support. my daughter took it upon herself to call them and talk to them. This made me feel some type of way. I don't even know what that feeling was but for her to think about me and be on my side is a great feeling. This proves liers never get supported. She really had no reason to put me on child support the first time. My daughter lived with me. She stayed with me while she was working all the time. I took her to school. I fed her. I supported her all the while giving her mom $350 a month. She was getting $350.00 while not having her daughter.

November 23rd, 2018 @ 10:12pm

December 2nd, 2018 @ 11:36pm

I asked my daughter a serious question about myself. I asked her if she were to rate me as a person, 1 - 10, what would you rate me. She rated me an 8.5. My daughter thinks I'm a good person and I don't ever want to dissappoint so I strive to continue to be a good person. I've remained honest to her, her whole life. Never cheated her out of an explanation as my father did me. And any time she needed to talk I made sure that I was available.

I believe my distrust of people and authority stems from my parents and the relationship I had with them. No parent is perfect however and so my parents need no blame. My mom at least did what she thought was best. As far as the other humans in the world my impressions of them are less than stellar. This is why I made sure I imprinted on my daughter early. I wanted her to have her own mind and challenge anything someone told her.

Now I have an amazing daughter that thinks before she speaks and thinks about her actions. She also do things with reasoning. Never allowing herself to make decisions half cocked. Sure she will fail but she will also rise from those failures and learn from them. She also is great at self reflecting and this will be something that will propel her in relationships and her journey through this thing called life.

December 2nd, @ 11:44pm

December 17th, 2018 @ 8:36pm

There comes a time in a parent's life they are a proud parent of the things that your child does. Then there's that moment when a Father is proud of his daughter. Well I have had several of those moments.

There was that one moment when my pot was on fire and my daughter saw it and said fire. She was around 2 years of age at that time. I literally stopped worrying about the fire and had my proud parent moment. Once reality set in again I had to try and put the fire out.

Then there was another moment when she was in elementary I assisted her with a little speech. She got on that stage and killed it. She end up coming in 3rd place. I was proud that she got on that stage and held her own.

Those were all cool and all but then that moment where I had the real proud father moment. Where I wanted to scream my daughter's name and scream that's my baby girl! It was when she did a duet with her friend. She absolutely killed it. The video is posted on my October 11th journal entry.

But there is the moment right now that has me feeling really proud. And without going to much into it let me just insert the picture here.

December 18th, @ 10:34am

May 24th, 2019 @ 9:56am

My daughter singing, she's on the left. She did great again. Not as good as last time but I think she's still amazing.

Trenadee on May 9th at King High School. Check out the video.

May 24th, 2019 @ 10:00am