One message, one kind jesture, one incredible fantasy. I haven't in a long time consider getting into a relationship. I had an eye on a few woman, planning, wondering if I could find myself being with the women that were on my radar. But there was just one woman who wasn't even a thought, a fantasy, nothing. I'm not sure how it even happened.
I sit and try to go back and see how did this transpire. What did I do to deserve a young, sexy, incredibly beautiful woman, to find interest in me. Does she really want to get to know a nigga? I have questions that would need to be answered before I get suckered into some relationship that really isn't real. The more I think, the more I scare away from getting involved. It's so easy for me to cut someone off just based off of my own fear. My mind will have me shutdown and close up shop on a relationship real quick. I just try and slow down and go back to how the fuck did we get here?
She is so damn fine and those pictures that she sent me, so damn hot! She almost feels like a girlfriend because the pictures was so damn exclusive. I couldn't tell you why she felt so comfortable sending those to me but I can't lie, I love that shit! Money shots are the best pictures to get but I love the ass shots and breast shots as well. I can picture myself playing house with this young ass girl. And I know that I shouldn't be. I want her in a way I shouldn't which causes my mind to wonder why the hell she sent those to me. What does she want to do with me? The fear of commitment is also fucking me up. How do I know that she is the one I should give up the other women that I'm courting. I mean I really don't want to cause I feel like what's driving me to get to know her is my sexual desires to conquor her. Well the same can be said about the other women that I'm courting.
Without a solution to this situation, I have to continue to let her court me while I court the other women and if the urges get to strong and overwhelmes my whole being then I guess I'll be in a relationship. Normally though, the women cracks before I finally fold and end up in a relationship that I shouldn't be in.
